In December 2005 I started the South Beach Diet and I lost 60 pounds. I've since gained most of it back. I got married and was thrilled to have someone to cook for. I went crazy and started putting on the pounds. Looking back I realized that the key to my success was my determination. My determination to lose it wasn't for my health or overall well being. It was for purely vain reasons. Whatever works. Then after I got married I got lazy and too comfortable.
Something had to "click" within me first, I finally had enough. In the past it was difficult because I couldn't picture myself thinner. I had no idea how I would look and it seems so far out there and basically... impossible. Maybe it wasn't for me. I hated it when I would see someone who had lost a lot of weight and they would proclaim "If I can do it, anyone can do it". That is so not true. Everyone is different, different health issues, body images, habits and baggage. Oh the baggage.
However, I can feel that feeling coming over me again. The "I've had it and I'm gonna do it." My motivation this time is very different. Vanity? Yes but now I'm married and I want to do more things like hiking with my husband. And on a more serious note, my step children's mother is ill. And my feeling is she could pass before the youngest (14) is raised. If she were to pass, my 14-year-old would come to live with us, which I would love but the circumstances are devastating. So, I need to get some weight off so I can keep up with my son and a more hectic life, which is already hectic. I need to be in better shape to do things with him and my husband... as a family. Especially to help him through the loss of his mother. I'm not looking to get skinny, I'm more realistic and I would be happier with just a smaller me. Size 12-16 would be good.
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