Walking/Hiking????

I didn't follow the diet very well this weekend, not bad, but not great. I didn't have the courage to weigh myself. I will probably wait a few days.  HOWEVER, I did do a 3 mile walk on Saturday with my husband and a 2 mile hike through the forest yesterday. I was shocked that I liked it, I was shocked that I did it! I did have to stop a few times on the hike but I kept going.  My husband said he would buy me some new hiking boots for our new interest. :) Feeling pretty good about myself today.

Time.

I really need to lose about 90-100 pounds. Sometimes it seems like a daunting task. I was reading a blog about this young woman who weighed 300 pounds and lost about 136. I think it took her just over a year. She was just darling and I thought gez, why do I get so impatient about how long it will take, when the time is going to pass no matter what. This time next year will be here guaranteed, it's what I choose to do during that time. I choose, sticking to my guns and getting this weight off.

Yes!! Into the 40's.

Well I've lost two pounds and it has made me feel even more motivated. My husband is out-of-town for a couple of days (back tomorrow) which is good, although I miss him, so I can get into the swing of this. This morning my egg quiche is fantastic. I don't feel like I'm dieting. 

The Dukan Way says the first 5 days or so no veggies, just protein, then you alternate after that with a full day of just protein and the next day protein and veggies. So I'm kind of inventing my own way just a bit. I'll eat veggies and just see how my body responds. I can't eat the Fat Free ranch dressing... just can't. So I'll have my little luxuries here and there I just won't go overboard. 

The only thing I don't like about the Dukan Diet is that that first week your tired and that I can't stand. So maybe by not cutting out the veggies the first week I won't be so tired. I feel pretty good today, hopeful, bright-eyed and ready to roll.


Breakfast: Egg quiche, cup of light vanilla soy milk.
Snacks:  1 Tbs. Peanut Butter (can't live without peanut butter), Sugar Free Strawberry Jello (bite out of my lunch (hamburger)
Lunch:  Two hamburger patties (No bun), dip in a bit of ranch dressing
Dinner: Not sure, probably hamburger patty with some fat free cheese and of course my Dukan Pancake. That pancake saves my sanity.

Side Thought

In December 2005 I started the South Beach Diet and I lost 60 pounds. I've since gained most of it back. I got married and was thrilled to have someone to cook for. I went crazy and started putting on the pounds. Looking back I realized that the key to my success was my determination. My determination to lose it wasn't for my health or overall well being. It was for purely vain reasons. Whatever works. Then after I got married I got lazy and too comfortable.

Something had to "click" within me first, I finally had enough. In the past it was difficult because I couldn't picture myself thinner. I had no idea how I would look and it seems so far out there and basically... impossible. Maybe it wasn't for me. I hated it when I would see someone who had lost a lot of weight and they would proclaim "If I can do it, anyone can do it". That is so not true. Everyone is different, different health issues, body images, habits and baggage. Oh the baggage.

However, I can feel that feeling coming over me again. The "I've had it and I'm gonna do it." My motivation this time is very different. Vanity? Yes but now I'm married and I want to do more things like hiking with my husband. And on a more serious note, my step children's mother is ill. And my feeling is she could pass before the youngest (14) is raised. If she were to pass, my 14-year-old would come to live with us, which I would love but the circumstances are devastating. So, I need to get some weight off so I can keep up with my son and a more hectic life, which is already hectic. I need to be in better shape to do things with him and my husband... as a family. Especially to help him through the loss of his mother. I'm not looking to get skinny, I'm more realistic and I would be happier with just a smaller me. Size 12-16 would be good.

Back in the saddle

I totally blew off my diet this summer. I joined Weight Watchers last week and I don't know why, but I'm having a hard time sticking to it.  So this morning I thought what if I combined WW and Dukan Diet. I'm logging my Dukan meals into WW online just as an experiment for now. 

What I like about the WW is you really can eat anything; you just have to count the points. If I wanted, I could blow my entire day's points on burger and fries. However, with that much freedom I find myself straying. I get impatient too. 

With the Dukan, I know I'll see a significant amount of weight drop within the first week. No thinking in my head "okay, how many points have I used today... what do I have left?" We'll see. Honestly, I think nothing will work until I get right in my head. 

Something that I found to help with the sweet tooth is Greek Yogurt (0% fat, plain) add some Splenda then some cocoa powder. YUM!!! Not as good as a chocolate bar, but it will do for now.  

Breakfast: Two eggs with a sprinkle of Parmesan cheese. 
Snack: Greek Yogurt (0% fat, plain) with cocoa powder
Lunch: Cobb Salad with buttermilk dressing
Dinner: Beef Hamburger 90/10, Dukan Pancake